Tuesday, 23 September 2014

Oh hello there September!

September was always one of my favorite months! It meant that I would see all my friends at uni again, that it wouldn't be as effing hot as in the Summer (even though in Portugal there is not much of a difference between August and September) and it just means new beginnings.

Even though this year there is no difference, since I got to work all through Summer and apparently am only able to start my Master degree in March due to bureaucracy stuff, I'm still really happy that it's September!

For once, the weather has gotten just how I like it: cold. Not humid cold like we have in Portugal, but that dry cold that makes your cheeks red, but does not get into your bones. 

August was good. Really good! I learned who my friends are, who I really want in my life and who I don't. I learned to appreciate myself somewhat more. 

And above all, I'm happy!

Have a great September!!!!


Friday, 19 September 2014

The reason why men use women

I got an e-mail a while ago, from an 18 year old girl, telling me that she feels like guys only want to use girls and treat them as objects. She says all the guys she meet are disrespectful and sometimes even rude and she wanted to know what I think about it, my opinion on the subject. So here it is:

I think nowadays women have stopped setting the bar up high for themselves. I see young girls giving it up for any guy they meet, getting into relationships when they're 12. That ain't a relationship, you're not even mature enough to know what a relationship is!

The worst part, in my opinion, is that women have stopped respecting themselves and each other. Calling each other bitches and hoes and whatnot, is not ok! Women should empower each other, help each other up not tear each other apart and put other women down!!!

I feel that girls nowadays have stopped being ladies. I'm not saying you need to look like a 50's movie start, but respecting yourself is something you should always do. That we should all do. 

If we respect ourselves, others will too. If we keep disrespecting other women, men are gonna keep thinking it's ok to call us bitches and objectify us and they will keep doing so.
Just like, the simple fact that a girl hits on every guy she sees is sending out the message that she's easy and not a lady. 9 out of 10 times, no guy will want to have anything more than a one night stand with her. Or keep her on hold when he gets "lonely".

The reason why guys use women, in my most honest and crude opinion is: 


We have the power to decide if we're gonna be used or not. Ok, so maybe we don't realize it right away. I've done that same mistake not too long ago (remember this post?), the thing is, as soon as I realized it, I jumped off the wagon.
Truth of the matter is, YOU decide. A guy cannot:
  •  hold your hand, unless you let him.
  •  Kiss you, unless you let him. 
  • Play with, you unless you let him. 
  • Disrespect you, unless you let him.
(And if he does, he's a rapist or forcing you and you should definitely get him out of your life or, in more extreme cases, call the police.)

Bottom line, we want to find reasons and "whys" and answers as to why men treat women this way now. Because WE let them. We stopped respecting ourselves and the moment we did that, men stopped respecting us.

You want to find a nice guy, who will treat you right and be a gentleman? Then start with yourself. Start respecting yourself. Don't accept any disrespect. Show the world that you know who you are and what you want. And then the boys will go and the men will start coming. Real, grown up men, who know how to respect you because they learned it from their mothers.

Because, we make men. Women are the ones who teach the men how to treat a woman. We accept all sorts of shit from our sons because "oh well, he's a little kid". Fuck that! It's when they're "little kids" that you need to show them and teach them how to treat a woman. It's only when they hit puberty and the fathers take the role model part in their lives, that boys start acting...well...stupid. If we teach them from early on how to treat a woman right, they will keep doing so. And if their fathers treat women disrespectfully...well...then you shouldn't be with them to begin with!

Truth is, women raise men. Men raise ladies. 

You want a guy who will treat you right? See how he treats his mother. If he is disrespectful to her, then rest assured he will disrespect you as well. (but beware of Momma Boys...)

Start with yourself...you shouldn't even be thinking of being with a guy before you know yourself and know your worth and what you want!

I know this probably wasn't what you were expecting when you asked me my opinion. I could sit here and make excuses. But they would be nothing more than that: excuses


Call on me - the real people version!

Remember this post I wrote last week about insecurities being in our head?

I just came across this video below, where nine Norwegian cancer survivors remade the video of "Call on me", known to be one of the most sexy and controversial videos ever. It is seriously cool and shows how, no matter what your "damage" is, you not only can, but sure as hell still are beautiful!

Check it out!
(I've never been so proud to have been a Norwegian for 18 years of my life! Go Norway!)


Monday, 15 September 2014

Calling ourselves ugly

Next time you think you're ugly or fat or whatever it is you like to call yourself, come back and read this!

Enough said!


Sunday, 14 September 2014

Can you use Google?

By now it's no secret that I'm not really the best person when it comes to computer stuff. It's not that I'm dumb, it's just that me and electronics just don't get along!

I always have a handful of friends that are what I call "geniuses" on hand so that I can call them whenever I have a problem (which is more often than I'd like to admit!). 

Yesterday one of them (who actually is a genius regarding PC's, the guy programs stuff for Christ sake!!!) sent me this picture and I just laughed for hours. Later in the evening I saw it on a friends facebook as well and I had to laugh again!

It just made me laugh like crazy! I do try Google whenever I have a problem, I just can't seem to find the answers xD

Have a great Sunday!


Saturday, 6 September 2014

No one fucking cares about your insecurities!

Insecurities. Those little demons that get into our heads and make us feel like we're not good enough. Little thoughts and feelings that we cannot really pinpoint where they come from or when they started. We just know they're inside our heads, our bodies, our souls. Eating us alive from the inside. And no one fucking sees them.

They're all in your head. Every.Single.Insecurity.You've.Ever.Had.

"I am fat".
"I have dimples in my thighs/legs/butt".
"I have small/big boobs"
"My nose is crooked"
"I don't have a thigh-gap"
"My hair isn't long/shiny/straight/wavy enough"
"My teeth are not straight"
"I am stupid"
"I am never good enough"
"I have a belly"
"I am ugly".

All of those things are in YOUR head. Let's be honest here...every girl has insecurities. At least every girl I know, even if they don't like to admit it in public, has some insecurities. But, when you see someone, do you see those insecurities? Those thoughts and feelings that make them upset and feeling unworthy? NO! You see your friends/family/girlfriend and you think they're fucking amazing and awesome and sometimes you wish you were more like them! Because, you think there's no fucking way they're as insecure as you are. 

News flash: They are. We ALL are! Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and I see a disgusting person. Which is completely insane because, even if I'm not everyone's taste or I don't fit into the society norms of what is supposed to be beautiful, I'm pretty darn sure I ain't disgusting! I take a lot of pride in my personal hygiene and stuff...and I smell pretty good, or so I've been told. But it's my insecurities getting into my head that make me feel that way and make me think that I have "flaws". And it fucking sucks!!!

So many of my friends let those insecurities bring problems into their romantic relationships. Girls...let me tell you something...most 98% of the guys I know don't even realize you are insecure, unless you make it pretty obvious! If a guy wants to be with you it's because he sees something in you. He's not thinking "Damn, she's so fun and cool and shit, if only she had thinner legs". (And if he is, dump him like I did with this guy, because trust me, he ain't worth you!)

And if you think "OMG I'm like never getting naked in front of him because he'd see my cellulite", first off, most guys don't know what cellulite is and if they do, that's the last thing on their mind when they're about to see you naked! Don't believe me? Read this and this articles. 

Bottom line is, the people around you don't see all those small things you see, those insecurities, no one else sees them. And sometimes people even like that about you!!! I laugh like a freaking 5-year-old, when I laugh, I laugh hard and that used to make me insecure and I used to try and tone it down a notch...until a very good friend of mine asked me why the hell I did that, because that's one of the things he and other friends find cute about me. Apparently my laugh is "intoxicating and contagious". You can rest assured I am never toning my laugh down anymore!!!

YES! You are!! We ALL are! 

Stop letting your insecurities control your life...they're only in your head..if you go right now and tell your friends 5 things you feel insecure about, I guarantee you they will tell you they had no freaking clue. And will most probably tell you that you're insane for feeling and thinking that. 

It's normal to feel somewhat insecure...but don't let that control your life. More often than not, the things that make you feel insecure about yourself are the same things that make you unique and who you are!


Wednesday, 3 September 2014


I hate being sick. It's annoying and boring and I'm just not the kind of person to stay in bed all day. 

Yesterday I woke up with my voice all messed up, all scratchy and stuff...so of course, being that I work at a call center, I knew I couldn't go into work. I called in and then went to the doctors, hoping they would just give me something for my throat and that'd be it.

The doctor instead said it's probably the start of a big cold and that I should stay home until Friday. Me. Home. Alone. Four days. Yeah, that's gonna be peachy!

So now I'm home bound for the rest of the week. And I'm bored. Like, seriously bloody bored. 

But hey, at least I'm spending the time writing...when I'm not forcing Cookie to cuddle with me...


Wednesday, 27 August 2014

Let's talk about sex...

Specifically sex in teen shows.

 (I can imagine my parents breathing of relief right now.)

You got ongoing shows like Pretty Little Liars, Vampire Diaries or shows that have already ended like Gossip Girl or the very controversial The O.C.. One thing they all have in common? They're all teen shows, featuring teens (or better said adult actors playing the part of a teen), the daily high school life and of course, tons of drama. Because being a teenager just has to involve drama. (I guess I wasn't a proper teenager then...sigh).

Another thing they have in common? Sex. Lots of it. Like, really a lot. (see what I did there, talking like a teenager? Yeah ok..not as cool as I thought..)

Now, sex isn't bad. I'm in no means saying that. I just think it is totally unrealistic that teenagers have that much sex at such a young age. Yes, teen sex is a thing, it exists, you just need to look at the statistics of teenage pregnancies. I highly doubt the Holy Spirit is getting all of those kids pregnant. But you know what? Ain't everyone having it like that! These shows depict teenagers copulating more than freaking bunnies during mating season! (do bunnies have a specific mating season? whatever).

I think the worst part isn't even the whole teens-having-lots-of-sex issue, but the fact that never in these shows have I ever seen them even nearly approaching the subject of safe sex. (except on MTV's Teen Wolf where they once mentioned a condom).

Sex is normal. It's healthy. It's fun! But it also should be done safely. And I think these shows have a huge role in influencing young teens minds. As if teenagers need more influencing with all the hormones and shit going through their brains!!! Teenagers are known to make bad decisions (again, hormones, no clear thinking, immaturity even-though-they-think-they're-so-freaking-mature. And yes, I was totally one of them too) and are very easily influenced. And let's be real, these shows are, like it or not, sort of guidelines to nowadays teenagers. I had Dragon Ball and Harry Potter (and yes, I'm still secretly waiting for my letter from Hogwarts, I think the Postman might have lost it), but kids nowadays have these shows. 

There are 10 and 12-year-olds watching these TV-shows. And they end up thinking it is normal to have sex with everyone and jump from boyfriend/girlfriend like they're trying out different outfits. No wonder the younger generation doesn't value people, relationships and friendships anymore. They're taught by nowadays shows that those things can just be replaceable, that they're ephemeral. As if consumerism wasn't doing a good job at it already, now they are also taught that people are replaceable and shit.

Guys, if you want to have sex at a young age, fine by me! Everyone has the right to do what they want with their own bodies and I have no judgement. But please, be safe! Nowadays people who don't use protection are just, sorry to say this, plain fucking stupid!
Ok, so it's not really sexy to stop and see if you have protection, or ask if the guy has a condom because it "kills the mood". But is it worth the risk contracting some STD or getting pregnant as a teenager and basically ending up being a kid with a kid? 

I think the TV-Shows could use their influence to make kids more responsible about their sexual acts. Because, guess what, they are a role model, whether they want it or not. And it's not just an USA thing either. In Portugal the teen shows also depict everyone having sex with everyone!!! Dude, when I was a teenager I wasn't doing the hanky panky like that, neither were my friends. (ok, I also thought I'd end up alone and a virgin forever, but that's a whole other story).

Does anyone out there think that the way these Shows depict teenagers sex lives isn't realistic and they should at least try to incorporate some safe sex talk? Or am I turning into a 80-year-old-woman? Let me know..I'm curious. 


Thursday, 21 August 2014

Living life!

I know I haven't been writing much lately...I could say I've been so busy or that I've been sick or under the weather or whatever excuse that is appropriate here.

Truth is, I've just been having fun and living my life!

When I'm not working I'm usually hanging out with friends! I'm the girl who would never go out on a "school night" because I wanted to go home and sleep (and would end up awake in bed not being able to fall asleep...yeah...that was me), but now, if I wish like going out for a drink/snack/chat with my friends I will! Of course I won't stay out until 3am if I have to work at 8am the next day, but I'll go out for an hour or two!
Last night I actually went out to a pub right near my working place with a couple of colleagues and even though I only stayed until 10pm, I had a blast!!! 

That's what life's about! And you don't even need to spend a ton of money if you just go and have a beer or a coffee and you'll still have a good time! Those are the important things in life...being happy...having friends..having a laugh after a long day of work...
So you know what? Go out after work for a drink...have fun with your friends..I have to say I found some good friends at my work place (like my friends Eva or Rogi!) and a ton of other people who are a lot of fun! 

Have fun and live life!!! 


Monday, 18 August 2014

Inspirational Monday: Close the door

Sometimes we have a hard time letting the past be the past...be it regarding friendships, relationships or that bad grade on a test, you should learn how to close the door to your past and let the future be the future...and most importantly, don't take the present to seriously.

Now don't get me wrong, you should think about your future! Just don't take it to seriously...don't let it control your life, your every single moment!

Every day is a new day. A new opportunity, to start over, to do better, to let the past be the past! Get drunk, go on a vacation with your friends, try new things! You want to have stories to tell your grandchildren or your old friends once you're at a elderly home, right?

But learn when you should open that door again. Don't let the opportunity of seeing an old friend go by, just because you want the past to be the past. There is place for everything, in moderation. Learn when to open the door and when to let it be closed!


Monday, 11 August 2014

Inspirational Monday: Self Worth

Since I got so many e-mails of people asking me to bring back Inspirational Monday, I decided "meh, why not...let's give them folks some inspirations at the start of the week again!" and here we are again!!!

For way to long I spent my time looking for people to validate me. Be it my friends, my aunts and uncles, my parents, the man at the newspaper stand....ok, maybe not the last one, but you get the idea! And guess what? I was miserable!!!

I thought I had to change myself, be someone else, make everyone happy...and that was just not happening! I mean...you can NEVER please everyone...and you shouldn't! You should please yourself, be who YOU want to be. As long as it's not a murderer. Please don't think it's ok to be a murderer from reading this post...

You need to accept yourself...accept that you're not the thinnest or the tallest or the shortest or the smartest or the dumbest or whatever it is you're not and think you should be! Once you do that, you'll start seeing your own worth!

 Everyone has exceptional characteristics and qualities and I feel people spend way to much time thinking about what they're not and forget to see how awesome they already are!!! And they should see that and everything will fall into place!

Unless you're a murderer. Never be a murderer!


Sunday, 10 August 2014

Good friends and good drinks!

This past week was quite eventful. Wednesday was very hard for me and I wasn't doing very well. Luckily me and some friends got out of work early and decided to meet up with a fourth friend of our for some drinks to brighten up the mood!

We decided to go to Naschmarkt in Vienna and have some drinks at Neni's. We sat outside and I must say it was some of the most fun I've had ever since I got to Vienna! We laughed, we talked about a lot of things and we had drinks. I had a glass of Hugo Spritzer and I must say I loved it! I'd heard of it before, but this was my first time trying it and I spent the whole time thinking how me and my best friend Hugo would make jokes about it!

Hugo Spritzer

At 19:00 two of our friends had to leave, but me and R. went to a pub in the first district and sit by the bar having fun and talking! So we decided to go to the 1516 Brewing Company and I have to say I might make it one of my go-to places from now on! The atmosphere is amazing, the staff is nice, the music is just up my alley and they have the best beer in town. Even though I had a Cranberry Juice, but I take the word that the beer is amazing! Oh and the potato wedges are

Yesterday we had decided to go all out again, but then two of us couldn't go so it was just me and E. We decided to go walk by Schwedenplatz for a while and then ended up sitting at a table outside of the S'Eck. It was a really cool place to be, we could talk and have fun and the lovely lady who served us was really nice! We ended up trading drinks after trying each others drinks and even though I originally had ordered a Mangospritzer I ended up drinking a Veilchenspritzer. It's white wine with soda water and violet syrup and it's yummy! 

I don't usually go out during the week, and even on Wednesday I was home by 9PM, so it wasn't really a "night out". But being with those friends was just what I needed to feel better! They sure as hell know how to have a good time!

It's nice to know you have good friends and it sure is true, it's in those times when you're down that you find out who really is your friend. And I ain't gonna let these three go anytime soon! 


Saturday, 9 August 2014


I'm a very social person and I've been told I'm a very good friend, which is something I always love to hear, for obvious reasons!

But I'm also someone who takes friendships very serious. And, like everyone, I've also been hurt and disappointed and spent my time on the wrong people. At the time it was horrible and I was very hurt and didn't want to ever have friends again, but today I realize it makes me a better person and more appreciative of my real friends!

I remember when I was in college still and one particular year was very rough because I lost two friends for completely stupid reasons (basically they were not ok with "sharing" my friendship with anyone else and didn't want me being friends with anyone else, while being with them), but regardless of the reasons, it was hard. Especially because one of them decided to be really mean and talk crap about me and I was stupid too sensitive and always felt bad about it when I heard it. 

Bottom line is, I ended up learning to invest in the right kind of friends!!! Real friends aren't threatened by you being friends with other people, they encourage you to do so. They help you up when you're down and pull you back down when your head is to far up in the clouds (which in my case happened a lot!).

As hard as it might be, and trust me, I know how hard it is sometimes, you need to do what is best for you! If you keep investing your time and friendship on someone who doesn't give a crap, you'll end up hurt and alone in the end...instead, try to figure out who is worth your time, your commitment and your friendship...and in the end you'll feel better and be sure you got the right friends!!!


Wednesday, 6 August 2014

New apartment decorating ideas!

So, since I found a new apartment I've been thinking of how I'd like to decorate it...It has almost no furniture (just a bit of storage and one bookshelf-kinda-thing) and I only have my bed...

That's why I decided to go on Polyvore to get some inspiration...and then of course share with you guys! Here it is:
New apartment decorating ideas!

What I definitely need is a table, because the apartment isn't furnished and I only have my bed...so that's kinda my priority right now...and of course, some chairs! You can see I'm leaning on to white furniture, because I feel it'll make the apartment look bigger (or at least not smaller than it already is) and that way I can also play with colors in the accents!

For outside (did I mention I have a terrace????) I'd also like to get a table and two chairs...so we can sit and relax...of course an umbrella is also in order, especially with my light and fair and stupidly sensitive skin!

Other than that, I'm thinking of getting curtains in a sort of greenish color, that will look good and calm, but not too girly...

This last one will make my Mom proud...but I'm thinking of getting a rug....ikea has a very similar one to the one above, which I fell in love with!!! It's not too big..not too small...perfect neutral color...I just love it...me, the person who used to hate rugs!


Monday, 4 August 2014

Lip pampering!

The good thing about having friends scattered all over the world is that they can send you stuff you can't find in your country!!!
For my birthday, my good friend D who is now living in the USA, sent me this lovely eos kit!!! 

Eos is definitely one of my favorite lip balm brands, but it's always very hard to get by...so when I got these delivered at my doorstep for my birthday, I was more than pleased! I think I may or may not have squealed of happiness!

Do you know eos? Have you tried them? I love that you can have lots of different flavors and that all the ingredients they use are natural!


Saturday, 2 August 2014

Welcome August!

Yesterday was the 1st of August...and it really made me realize how fast time flies by!
I moved here on the 4th of February and sometimes it seems like I've been living here forever...sometimes it seems I just saw my parents yesterday.

I wish everyone an amazing August! Make the best of it everyday, the best YOU can! Be happy, don't over think things, see the positive in everyday, don't let other ruin your mood, because it's up to you to make the best of every single day in your life!

If you can't change it or control it, stop focusing on it! Things will end up getting into place when you least expect it, I promise you! And when they do, you'll appreciate them even more!

It's the last month of Summer (not that we've had much of a Summer here in Austria!), so take in those late sunny afternoons, those dates with your friends, the free time you have, as small as it might be, take it in, be happy and enjoy this month!

Have an amazing August everyone!


Friday, 1 August 2014

Open letter to the girl who hate messaged me on Facebook!

The other day I got home to a rather unexpected surprise. I had a message on my private Facebook from a girl who thought it was mature and very appropriate to send me a message saying how crappy I am. Why? Well, there are reasons why this girl might not like me, that I am not going to explain here, because it doesn't matter. Here some of the things she wrote to me (in two messages) and my comments. Below is also my full response to it. Because, you know, we cannot let this go without a response!

Apparently she is very happy to have "won". I am very happy for her, even thought I did not realize this was a competition. My bad, I should have been paying more attention.
 According to her I am manipulative and fake and it's all due to the fact that I'm fat. I did not know your body shape/weight determined who someone is or their personality. Again, my bad for not being on top of things.
Also, according to her, men only have interest in me to try something "new" and "different". I did now know I was so out of the ordinary. Maybe I am an alien?
Oh, I am not smart or beautiful. I am now very worried, as I once was told that women that aren't smart or beautiful will never get a husband and we all know the goal of a woman is to get a husband to support her financially so she can bear his kids and take care of the house. If I am unable to find a man to marry me, what will be of my life? 
According to this person, the fact that I am fat automatically means I am seeking for attention from every man I can find, making me a "slut" and "whore". Like I said above, I did not know your body shape determined your personality.
I should stop eating so I'm not this fat anymore or better yet, I should just go ahead and kill myself (because then I wouldn't be a burden to society and I'm guessing her as well anymore). Le'mme think about it....nop. Not gonna do that. I enjoy eating healthy and killing myself just for being fat seems a bit too dramatic. Plus, how would I do it? There are just way too many options and thinking about all of the ways for one to kill themselves is just too time consuming for me. Besides, I'm 3000km away from my parents and if I'm going to off myself, I want at least to give some proper goodbyes and a freaking party!

My first thought when I saw the first message was "meh". No, literally. The next day when I got home and had yet another message I just blocked the girl and thought "wtf, are we 12 and back in middle school?!". And then I thought this would give a good post! I thought about how many girls out there get messages like these and go on feeling bad about themselves and I thought "hey, I can use this to help someone out there!".

I could have gotten mad. Heck a while ago I probably would have! But truth is...you writing me this just shows how immature you are and, quite frankly, how much of a bad character you have. Insulting someone based on how they look is a despicable and vile thing to do. Not to mention that it's just a cowardly thing to do, because you're behind a screen. 
It just goes to show how insecure you are about yourself! It scares you that someone close to you might have interest in me and so you go and try to put me down by commenting on my weight (and apparent lacking of intelligence and beauty).

What you don't know about myself is that I struggled for a very long time. Too long. I would starve myself for days, there was a point in my life I only ate one soup a day! All because I thought being thin would make me somehow feel better about myself. And you want to know what happened? I ended up unhappy as fuck, wasted a year in a relationship with a guy who did not appreciate or respect me whatsoever and by the time I ended it I was at my rock bottom. And it took me a loooooog ass time to get to the point where I am today. And your little petty remarks about my body will not put me down!! 

I love my body and I don't need any man to tell me I am beautiful. I know I am! Like every other woman out there is, I truly believe we are ALL beautiful. And no, being fat does not make me want to go out and sleep with every guy I find! I take sexual intimacy very seriously and will not just jump in the sack with any guy...I mean, you don't even know if someone showers properly before you have a conversation with them and stuff...ya know, that's the kind of thing you need to know before you get to that stage with someone! I don't have "Daddy issues" and I don't need a man to make me feel like a woman (I have my period for that, reminding me every month how "blessed" I am for being able to carry children and all because I'm of the female sex). Regardless of my body shape or size or how much I weight.

I am not mad at you because I know better. I know those two messages came from a place of insecurity and hate and . You don't feel good about yourself and your relationship and doing this made you feel better about yourself. Well, if insulting me regarding my body makes you feel better about your own body and self, then I am more than happy to help you!!! But I think on the long run you should try to focus on yourself and try to get to a positive place, because sweetie, you're far from being a good person right now (which I personally already suspected). You have a lot of growing to do, and that's ok, we all had to do it. 

Girls, in my opinion, put other girls down to make themselves feel better. Women, on the other hand, empower each other. And this just goes to show that you're not a woman yet, but a girl. Maybe you'll get there one day, maybe not, but regardless, you'll have to find someone else to message, because I ain't gonna waste my time with little petty messages like that. I have way to much to do in my day and much more important people in my life to focus upon!

I just feel sorry for you. Plain and simple. I don't even think you are worth my time. Because someone who feels the need to do something this low and this vile, does not even deserve to be given attention. 

Has anyone else out there received hate comments, or how they now call it "fat shaming"? How did that feel? I hope reading this will help you realize that you are NOT the problem, but the person who did/said those horrible things. THEY are the problem, they're the ones who need to work on themselves. You are the victim here, not them. But you can choose if you want to act like a victim or move on with it! I chose the second option.

And remember everyone, this just goes to show that beauty isn't everything..


Thursday, 31 July 2014

My favorite coffee spot in Vienna!

When I first lived in Vienna, four years ago, I lived with my aunt in the 3rd district. It is a very good location, because it's quiet, but you're in the center in 15min walking. Back then I found this little coffee shop in Karl Lueger Platz, only 10 min walking from the house, where I would go and study (and watch the WM games at the time!).
So it's to no surprise that when I got back in February, I decided to go back to my coffee haven! It has a smoker and a non-smoker region, which I find really good! I don't smoke and I don't mind sitting in the smoking area when I'm with smoking friends, but when I'm alone I prefer not to.

I usually like to sit on the left by the window...it has a switch for me to hook up my computer, I can watch people passing by and I can write on the blog or do whatever I need to do in the computer during the time, while drinking my amazing coffee!

If you're ever in Vienna I would advise you to come to this coffee shop! There are many in the city, but my favorite is definitely the one in Karl Lueger Platz (Subway station "Stubentor"). The girls are all extremely nice and they always have a smile for you when you get in and a "See you soon!" when you go out (or in my case it's a "see you next week!"). 

Now that I'm living further away it's not as easy to go there because it takes longer than 10min (about 30 to 45), but whenever I need some "me" time and inspiration to write I always go there! They have free internet too, which is a major plus!


Wednesday, 30 July 2014

Heart to heart: The day I let a boy make me doubt myself

As you all know, I've had quite the long journey to get to the point where I love myself and don't care what others think. But even if you all think I am always on the top of my game and know I'm worth it, sometimes I also slip up. So let me tell you the story about when a boy made me doubt myself and my own worth.

Soon after I got to Vienna, when I was already on a (so I thought) steady job and had my own place (for the time being) and all of that, I met someone. I am not going to bore you with the details of how or when we met. We hit it off right away, we get along really good and we have a ton of fun when we're together! He's funny and sweet and smart and good looking. I wasn't looking for a boyfriend, I know better than to desperately go looking. It will happen whenever it has to happen. He on the other hand, was looking for someone, even though he might not admit it. So he was going out with someone else as well (nothing wrong with that, we were just friends, we were never "together" or anything!). 
It is no secret to anyone that we have feelings for one another. We just give off that vibe. "So, why didn't you get together with him Rosie?" you ask. Well...because he let society get in his head. 

He told me, to my face, that I am not his "type". I get it, people have types and all that...thing is, he let that control him and his emotions. My "type" are tall, dark and handsome guys with a bit of meat on their bones. This guy has blue eyes (something I never felt attracted to) and looks nothing like the type of man I usually gravitate to. But that was fine for me, because that connection we have and the intellectual and emotional part is so much more (plus he does look good, it's not like he's some kind of ugly-toothless-way-to-smelly-guy!). But he went a step further to say the other girl is his type. Yeah ok, fine...that's ok...I have friends who totally are my type but that don't mean I'll go have something with them because to me looks ain't everything! Thing is, he let that get to his head. He told me to my face that he has feelings for me. Deep feelings. The kind that make you feel all bubbly and fuzzy inside and shit. He told me he has nothing in common with that girl. That she doesn't make him happy, doesn't know him, doesn't make him feel all bubbly and fuzzy and shit. That it's purely physical. But since she's his type, he decided to be with her. And is trying to convince himself that he can end up developing the same kind of feelings for her that he has for me. Bottom line, he cares more about what people think about the person he's with, that to actually be with someone he truly has feelings for.

I let his superficial and shallow way of seeing things get to me. I started thinking I was the problem. That I wasn't good enough. That there was something wrong with me. And I fell into a deep well of self loath and doubts and feeling horrible and ugly and fat. As if I was the problem in this situation. I wasn't. I am not the problem. I was never the problem! As conceited as this might sound, I am and was always perfect. He decided to choose the superficial option, but that is not my problem! He is the one that will have to deal with his decision, because it affects him and his life, not me, not mine. 

Why am I telling you all this? So that you know that I'm not perfect. I too let people get into my head. I spent a long time trying to figure him out, trying to see what I did wrong, analyzing what he meant, if his feelings were real, if he had been lying, if...if...if...why..why...why. Until one day I woke up and I realized, it's not ME. I am better than this. Why was I letting someone else's opinion get me so down? Don't get me wrong, if I had no feeling whatsoever for him, I wouldn't have thought twice about it!!! I might have had my pride a bit stung, but I wouldn't get my feelings hurt. But I couldn't let this go on like this...it was ruining my self-esteem and my quality of life. And just plain honestly, I have way better things to worry about in my life!

And yes, in case you're wondering, I still talk to him. No, we will never be together as a couple and to be quite honest, I'm not so sure we'll be friend either, but time will tell. In the end of the day, when I lay awake in bed, I have my conscience clean. I know I didn't do the wrong thing, I know I didn't settle with someone just for their looks, I know I'm not sleeping with someone while thinking of someone else. And I know I value myself and, believe it or not, this whole situation made me appreciate myself even more! It made me remember who I am and that I came to far to let it all go down just because of someone's superficial opinions. My body, my life, my opinions are the ones that matter the most!

As you see, I too have highs and lows. I also get down, get doubts. It's OK.

As long as you get back up and get your shit together again!


Tuesday, 29 July 2014

Rosie Decorates: Apartment ideas!

As you might have seen on this post, I moved to my first very own apartment. Yeah yeah, I was living by myself before, but it was only until I could find something for myself, which meant I couldn't decorate anything, even if I wanted to.
But now all of that has changed and what I thought would be oh-so-fun to do, has turned into a nightmare. How do I know what I want??? Have you guys been to ikea?? I want everything I see. They have so many cute things...and I have such a small apartment...and an even smaller bank account...

Anyways, here are a couple of things I saw and am thinking of getting!

We had two of these chairs when I was growing up...I loved them and whenever I see them at ikea I immediately remember the times I spent sitting on ours just reading a book...So when I thought about getting a chair/tiny-little-smallest-possible-sized-sofa to put in front of my bed, this one immediately came to mind! I want to make a small "lounge" place for me to sit and relax and since I cannot have a big sofa in the apartment, this one is perfect!!

These shelves are perfect to put a lot of things! I have one of these, bigger, at my parent's place and love it! I thought about putting this beside the chair, to create a division in the room. It also is a good place to put my books and to store things.

My Mum loves carpets. I mean, the woman cannot get enough of them. She once cried when the dog threw up on one...and she then ruined it by washing it in the washer...ok, maybe I would have cried too if it had been really expensive, but at the time it felt a bit dramatic...anyways..I always hated carpets. I mean, I didn't want to have them in my room EVER and even managed to use the excuse that they collected dust and that was bad for my asthma to get rid of them. I mean, it's kinda true...but I said it more as an excuse xD

When I saw these I fell in love!!! I mean...after the whole "who am I?" debate inside my head I decided to say screw it and get a carpet! I just don't know which one of the two to get...I love the color of the one above, but I don't want my apartment to be all pink and stuff...I love pink...but not ALL pink...and my bed cover is already a very light pink color... The beige carpet would look good everywhere and with the white furniture (well, anything looks good with white!), but I'm afraid it will "die out" with the floors, because they're light wood in a similar color...

Anyways, these are some of the things I'm thinking of getting...what do you guys think? I already got some curtains for the balcony doors, in white with some gray details and I really like them! I just need to get the patience to shorten them a bit, because they're way too long!! But since I don't have a sewing machine and I don't want to spend money sending it somewhere, I'll have to do it by hand...it won't be perfect, but at least it'll look better that now (I'm making a know so they don't touch the floor..)

What do you guys think? Am I getting grown up or am I getting grown up??


Sunday, 27 July 2014

Saturday Cuddles!

Cookie has to wear a cone around her neck so she doesn't bite her broken legs cast, but she hates it. Whenever I'm home, since the apartment is so tiny and I can always keep an eye on her, I take it off and she's been really good and never bites her leg. When she thinks I'm not seeing, she tries, but then she immediately stops when I tell her to.

Yesterday morning, when I woke up, I took her cone out to give her a break of it. It was Saturday, I was going to spend the morning at home anyways and I knew it would make her happy...and look how she reacted!

How freaking adorable is she???? She didn't use to like cuddles that much...and she definitely didn't like to be pet AT ALL, but ever since the fall, she's been a lot more cuddly and happy to be pet...sometimes she comes to me just for me to pet her once or twice and then she leaves...

I freaking love my cat!


Saturday, 26 July 2014

Changes ahead

I started writing my first blog five years ago. I wanted to just write whatever came to my mind, but somehow I realized what the readers likes where fashion and style posts. So I started writing that kind of posts and it was fine..it is fine, it is fun to write...and most of all easy. 

Thing is, that's not only what I like. Yeah sure, I like styling people and reading about fashion, but that's not what I do most...I like writing, I like reading, I like laughing (A LOT). But what I like the most is inspiring people.

I want people, especially young girls, that it's ok not to be perfect. That you don't have to be skinny to be beautiful, that you don't need to look like a model That you are beautiful just the way you are. That everyone is beautiful.

But I have to admit, sometimes I don't write what I want because I'm scared of being judged. Truth is, everyone judges everyone, and if I really believe in what I write, why should I be freaking scared of showing it?! Right? Easier said than done...

I get regular e-mails from people saying that I inspired them with one or another post and my most read posts are the ones where I've opened up myself about my struggles and the whole way society makes women see themselves.

So yeah, this is just to let you all know, I'm gonna start writing more about that. I know I'll lose some readers, but I might gain some more. On days I post I get 200+ views and on days I don't I get 150+ views...and I don't think my Mum is coming every 5min to the blog to check if I wrote something new! I might get a bit personal, but that's ok. 

This is, after all, a blog about my life.